mixed nuts

Ouch. YEY!! Ouch. YEY!! Oh crap..... @.@

oh my... I'm losing it.... I think I've officially lost my mind...

I had a very good, almost perfect relationship with someone before but I was really never as happy as when I am with Jerome.. may it be physically or just in the cyber world... I don't know why I somehow feel like a fool after I smile and laugh with Jerome.. It's strange... I love him but while I am loving him, I am also hurting... Hurting because I am scared and I am scared because I am SCARRED. whew!

I never thought that I can really carry on feeling like this everyday for the past few months...

I can't seem to stop loving and hurting and somehow hating him all at the same time...

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...............


but one thing is for sure.....

I will be certain on what I really feel about him when I see him again..