im thriving well... that's one thing.
i have a very honest frined at work--Jonel.
my goodness, he's so tactless eerrr brutally honest when it comes to me.. but i like it. atleast he tells me stuff that im scared to admit.. he's like a lil bro even if im just 8monthns older than him, he's like my bestfriend mac! my workday is not going to be complete if i won't hear anything crazily negative about me from him--makes me laugh a lot!
last night, he saw me teary eyed at the stairs going to the 2nd flr pantry.. he noticed it and asked me why--told him that i was just touched by someoness honesty and then he said he knows that it is not the reason, he said he knows it has something to do with another person errr from the opposite sex--BINGO! so there... told him what has been bothering me and he said:
"friend, ang tanga mo... wag ka magsuicide para namang huling lalake na sa mundo yang iniiyakan mo.."
i told him my reason for crying... that i love the other person. and of course he asked me the one thing that i don't want to be asked..
"bakit, mahal ka ba niya?"
i took a deep breath and was not able to answer coz tears already flooded my eyes..
i know he doesn't... that's what i said inside... and then, he said the thing that i kinda didn't expect from him:
"kase ang happiness hindi dinedepend sa ibang tao, dapat mahalin mo muna sarili mo bago ka nagiilusyon sa relasyon.. sa tingin mo, self love yan? self torture yan.. tumigil ka na, muka kang tanga.."
how sweet right? he called me tanga again LOL
that's funny but that's true.. perhaps tanga nga ako for sticking up with someone and for ignoring the obvious signs that i am just in for some more PAIN...
hay... love is confusing! false hopes! i thought accepting someone as they are will make relationships easier, I DID but it made my life harder..... no more please.. i hope i can really stop now. :'c
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